8/8/26
wow! i meant to write again at a couple points over the last week, but my mind has been so busy. i am preparing for the new school year to start, whilst also diving into things like junk journaling (sort of). i have completed all of my "to-do list" from last time i wrote, and am currently working on my senior crown (my little pony themed). when i go back to my mom's house tomorrow, i plan on setting up a new travelling journal to pass back and forth with one of my good friends, her and i did the same in freshman year but it sort of fizzled out. i think this year, we can do better. i will also possibly add some stickers and such to the journal i plan on using for notes, scraps, sketches, etc. before packing up my backpack for school on monay. i also may transfer my diary writings to there, and scan them to upload here rather than updating the site every day, but that would also sort of be a hassle for me... i will figure things out once i get into the flow of the school year. i want to meal prep some easy things to keep in the freezer, but i may not get around to it quite yet. today i have been feeling very ambitious, making large shopping lists that i will probably never address again (because i am lacking funds... i've been blowing all my money during this last week of summer). i also have been making notes on how i would like to organize my backpack and such too, i may transcribe these into my notes page, if i get around to it tonight. a lot of my typing power has been going toward responding to some new friends i've made on globalpenfriends.com, who i've been speaking to using very long-form messages. i believe i am going out to dinner soon for my dad's 10 year anniversary, but i will definitely be updating this diary entry later tonight.
7/29/26
today has been a good day, even though i am not feeling well (i have had a fever and a headache, as well as a bit of a throatache but all have been managed with medication and rest). in the morning, i was able to do one assignment for each of my current flvs classes (history and english). in the afternoon i went to therapy and mostly just talked about childhood stuff, that's my copout for when i don't think of anything specific to talk about (in my defense, my headache was distracting me from doing any real thinking). one of my packages arrived, i now have a copy of 'the bell jar' by sylvia plath and 'the collected poems of sylvia plath.' i was really looking forward to reading the latter today, but instead i put on a movie (love & mercy, which i will have to rewatch another time when i am not asleep because it was actually interesting. reccommended to me by my therpist) and took a nap because i was still feeling sick.
yesterday, i did nothing because i was feeling exhausted, but monday i finally got to cleaning my room. my floor is now mostly empty, and i organized some of my magazine scraps, stickers, stationary, etc. so i can continue pursuing the whole snail-mail thing without also pursuing a huge mess.
right now, my to-do list consists of:
tomorrow, i will go to my boyfriend's house and possibly watch a movie i've been wanting to watch (wristcutters) and catch up on some sleep and such. saturday is my aunt's funeral/celebration of life, which i am not really looking forward to because it is sad that she died so young, but obviously i am going to pay my respects to her.
7/25/26
a lot has happened within the last couple of days and i've been meaning to write but i've been busy. but nothing too important has happened and i am too tired at the moment to fill you (the reader???) in, so i guess there will be an intentional gap written between the 21st and today.
today i went to busch gardens with izak, jordan, and gabby. i had a very good day, which has been unusual lately. the morning was off to a bit of a rocky start, but writing now at the end of the night i can say i had a really fun time :) i saw cute animals and rode some rollercoasters, which was oddly peaceful. unfortunately, however, due to my own neglect i now have a slight sunburn in the shape of the necklace i was wearing today.
i finally got my history dba done, and it was surprisingly easy. i'm not sure why i had been putting it off for so long. i'm hoping the essay i need to write (and have also been procrastinating) is the same. tomorrow i don't think i will get any schoolwork done, because i have plans already, but monday i definitely will.
my plans for tomorrow involve volunteering in the evening at metropolitan ministries' soup kitchen, and hopefully stopping by creative junk therapy (secondhand art supplies store) on the way so i can buy some things for making collages as well as for my latest hobby i've decided to revisit: exchanging mail with penpals (this time, using swap-bot and postcrossing).
a good idea i just had would be to start a (physical) journal of things that make me happy, because i've had a very happy day today but most days i forget what kinds of things even make me happy, and it would be helpful to have something to look back on. i might end up doing this, i might end up forgetting about the idea. i've been having way too many ideas lately and i'd like to try and limit myself so i don't take on too many projects at once and overwhelm myself. already, i have this project (my website) that i know is going to take a loooong time to fully flesh out, i've been working on it every couple of days and it is still a skeleton. i think once school starts again and i'm able to take an intoductory web development course, i will have a lot better of an idea of how to make things look the way i want them to.
other things i am currently working on:
(read to myself in the mirror, in the style of an aggressive affirmation): i will clean the dirty cups out of my room. i will tidy up my laundry pile. i will neatly organize my scrap magazines and stationary that are all over my floor.
7/21/26
i have been on the computer allll day... i think tomorrow i will need to get out of the house and do something. today i came over to my dad's house, and it hasn't been too bad. i was able to take a shower tonight, which is pretty great because i usually am not able to shower over here. tomorrow, i have therapy, and i believe my dad planned on going to the thrift store. i hate going places with my dad because he has a special knack for ruining anything that might bring me joy, but i will deal with it. only a few more months until i never have to see him again (note: my 18th birthday is on january 26th).
i don't have much else to write about today, i am going to try and get to sleep early so i can have a good day tomorrow :)
7/20/26
today has been a good day. i went to my boyfriend's house and stayed there for most of the day. we watched my little pony and surfed the internet and had sex and stuff, the usual. i was upset at him for some trivial reason but i felt better after today. tomorrow i go to my dad's house for the first time in a little over a week, and i'm not excited. especially considering i am writing this at 1:19am and i need to be awake before 10:30 so my dad can pick me up... but that's a problem for future me. i come back from my dad's house on friday and saturday i get to go to busch gardens!!!!
school starts in a couple weeks and i'm not sure how to feel... i think i'm nervous but also excited to be back in an actual physical school. doing virtual school was definitely not my thing. i did have a lot of free time, but i would rather be surrounded by good acquaintances than alone all the time (because unfortunately, my cat cannot be my only friend).
one last thing before i end this entry: one of my best friends' birthday party was a couple days ago and i had a lot of fun :) just felt i should add that, even though i am currently just typing into the void.
7/15/26
i am exhausted. i slept in until 11 this morning, didn't get any schoolwork done, didn't make cookies, didn't do anything. i am frustrated but tomorrow will be a better day i think. i had therapy today and it was okay, even though the first half of the session was wasted talking about unimportant things like school and college plans. tomorrow i plan to get some schoolwork done at the very least, and i have an optometrist appointment in the afternoon.
7/14/26
today was a tiring day, but i got a lot done. this morning, i completed one assignment each for my two flvs classes: us history and english. i'm trying to get done with both as soon as possible so i don't have to worry about finishing either up as i go back to school for my senior year (by the way, yay!) this afternoon, i spent a long time trying to figure out some things regarding this website... i've realized it's going to be a lot steeper of a learning curve than i'd expected. but that's okay, it gives me something to do. this evening i swam in the pool with ganon for a while (picture of ganon). i planned to make cookies today for my therapist's birthday, but my mom worked late and couldn't bring home groceries in time so i will postpone cookie-making for tomorrow. soon i will shower and get ready for bed and hopefully have an equally productive day tomorrow ^_^
7/13/26
hi dear diary today i made this website i will refine this page tomorrow because i am TIRED
so tired
